Tested and Trials

 

I used to be a person who would shy away from trying something. I was not one to try something new unless I took some time to feel very comfortable with it. 

Sushi was one of those things. I didn’t try sushi till I was probably in my mid-20s. I had opportunities before that, but just wasn’t sure, so I missed out on something wonderful for too many years. 

The same could be said about karaoke. I spent many years sitting at the table watching others sing, then one time finally tried it…loved it (despite my horrible singing voice). I am just one of those people who when tested on something and I’m unsure about, I have a hard time trying it…well I used to be. 

At some point in my late 30s I realized that trying something new and different, even if I fail, was going to teach me a lesson. Asking a question about something is not looking “dumb”, but an opportunity to grow. 

I wonder if the reason so many people have lost faith in God is because they are afraid that God won’t answer. They are afraid that it will be a useless cause. God doesn’t always answer all our prayers, but I think that He’s constantly testing us in order to help us grow to fulfill our purpose in life. 

Life is full of pain and heartache and I know with my faith in that there are reasons beyond my knowledge, those hard times are there to teach me and strengthen me. I can’t say I understand why some pains have to be felt, losing someone you love earlier than expected is as bad as it gets and I have no answers why that happens. 

All we can do is turn those losses and all heartaches into ways to be stronger. They have all made me stronger. The pain is still there, but I can say I feel myself moving towards some purpose.